1 step forward, 2 steps back.

Lately I’ve been finding that each time I get an answer to question, I end up with at least two more questions in response.  On Christmas, I wrote on the whole front page of notebook paper with questions for God in my prayer journal.  I get frustrated because I feel as if my relationship with God isn’t moving anywhere fast enough, like I’m not getting enough answers, not changing enough, not becoming better. 

Then I realize this.  My relationship with God is like running a race.  But my goal isn’t about becoming a better person.  It isn’t about finding all the answers.  There are some things I will never understand.  It isn’t about following the rules, learning lessons, or finding a ministry.  It’s about LOVE.

When asked what the greatest commandment is, what did Jesus say?  LOVE God.  LOVE others.  I’m running a race and it’s toward Christ.  What compels me to keep running?  God’s LOVE.  What should I do along the way?  Simply LOVE.  

It's easy to get caught up in the motions and miss the meaning, to focus on the end and forget the means.  All we have is now, this "2/5ths of a second" as Francis Chan puts it.  I want my 2/5ths of a second, my race, to be run by, through, and with God's LOVE.