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God is taking me to Africa.
Flight tickets bought, bags just about packed, countless prayers prayed, hugs given, phone calls made, letters sent, surprises prepared, conferences attended...
2 days ago I got this e-mail and talked to my dad on the phone. There was suddenly a possibility the trip was off. My heart was stricken. Lies haunted me- God does not want to use me. I am never going to be good enough. Lies multiplied.
Then I just had a peace. I knew the truth. NO MATTER IF I WAS ABLE TO TAKE THE TRIP OR NOT, GOD LOVED ME. If He was going to close that door, it was only because He was going to open another one. Still, I felt such a strong calling to go. Why would God call me and prepare me and put the pieces completely in place to abandon me? My God is faithful. He has steadfast love. He will not leave me. And He didn't.
I started reading Psalm 91 and dwelled on God's promises. And you know what? He kept His promise!
Tomorrow God is going to begin to stretch my faith in a completely new way as I embark on a trip to Africa. I will be sure to keep you updated on the adventure as well as I can. All I know is that these words cannot do justice to the overwhelming joy in my heart. God has not abandoned me or found me useless. He wants me to shine for Him on another continent.
As I look back on my Freshman year of college, God never once left my side! He was there during the good, bad, mundane, and joyous. He was there and it was His will. My heart is full.
God is taking me to Africa.
Flight tickets bought, bags just about packed, countless prayers prayed, hugs given, phone calls made, letters sent, surprises prepared, conferences attended...
2 days ago I got this e-mail and talked to my dad on the phone. There was suddenly a possibility the trip was off. My heart was stricken. Lies haunted me- God does not want to use me. I am never going to be good enough. Lies multiplied.
Then I just had a peace. I knew the truth. NO MATTER IF I WAS ABLE TO TAKE THE TRIP OR NOT, GOD LOVED ME. If He was going to close that door, it was only because He was going to open another one. Still, I felt such a strong calling to go. Why would God call me and prepare me and put the pieces completely in place to abandon me? My God is faithful. He has steadfast love. He will not leave me. And He didn't.
I started reading Psalm 91 and dwelled on God's promises. And you know what? He kept His promise!
Tomorrow God is going to begin to stretch my faith in a completely new way as I embark on a trip to Africa. I will be sure to keep you updated on the adventure as well as I can. All I know is that these words cannot do justice to the overwhelming joy in my heart. God has not abandoned me or found me useless. He wants me to shine for Him on another continent.
As I look back on my Freshman year of college, God never once left my side! He was there during the good, bad, mundane, and joyous. He was there and it was His will. My heart is full.
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